Do you ever feel like life is just SO overwhelming that it's hard to even breathe? Even though you know that you have everything in your life to be thankful for and there is no reason for you to be down and out…..???..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />
This week has just been a week where no matter how much I try to lay it all at the feet of Christ I just can't kick this aching that's going on in me.
Maybe I just need to let it all…maybe I just need to talk to someone….maybe I just need to take a day and just relax….maybe I just need a Valium! Hahaha…just kidding. I just don't know.
There's just so much going on. ..:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />Jordan's grandma is not doing and honestly she really isn't expected to live much longer if she doesn't eat or drink which she's not doing much of. Then my grandpa isn't doing well and they told us yesterday they think he might make it through the weekend but not much longer after that. Then there just feels like there is still so much to do with the wedding. Then there's still so much to pay for the wedding. Then there are work issues and other financial issues. Then there's stuff with church and church people that has been weighing on my heart. My week is pre martial counseling, practice, youth, go visit our grandparents, run this errand or that errand, do this or that for the wedding, get this done or that done…..ah! Then I've been so run down that I keep getting sick. Dumb flu, then a cold, then a sore throat….then I can't sleep at night b/c I'm so stressed out so I can't get the rest I need to get better. Normally I of all people can handle anything…..it's my nature to run run run and be busy but right now it's just too much. People tell me "well slow down"….how? There is nothing that I can take a break from or what to take a break from. Everything going on in my life right now needs my full attention….
And then there's times when I feel like even in the midst of my crazy life I go out of my way for people to let them know I'm there for them….send them cards, send an out of the blue email or ecard, get them flowers, or buy them small gifts. That's me; I care a lot about people and I care a lot about making sure the people in my life are doing ok. But sometimes I feel like I give and give and give and when does anyone do that for me…..when does someone check on me; when does someone go out of their way for me. Man….I'm such a brat right now, but sometimes you just have to vent, right? ;)
This week is just one of those weeks where I'm just tired and overwhelmed and frustrated…..and I just need to vent I guess.
I know that God is amazing and I know He'll never give me more than I can handle. I know that through all this He will teach me great things. I guess I just need to stop being a brat and just look harder to see Him in all of this.
This week has just been a week where no matter how much I try to lay it all at the feet of Christ I just can't kick this aching that's going on in me.
Maybe I just need to let it all…maybe I just need to talk to someone….maybe I just need to take a day and just relax….maybe I just need a Valium! Hahaha…just kidding. I just don't know.
There's just so much going on. ..:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />Jordan's grandma is not doing and honestly she really isn't expected to live much longer if she doesn't eat or drink which she's not doing much of. Then my grandpa isn't doing well and they told us yesterday they think he might make it through the weekend but not much longer after that. Then there just feels like there is still so much to do with the wedding. Then there's still so much to pay for the wedding. Then there are work issues and other financial issues. Then there's stuff with church and church people that has been weighing on my heart. My week is pre martial counseling, practice, youth, go visit our grandparents, run this errand or that errand, do this or that for the wedding, get this done or that done…..ah! Then I've been so run down that I keep getting sick. Dumb flu, then a cold, then a sore throat….then I can't sleep at night b/c I'm so stressed out so I can't get the rest I need to get better. Normally I of all people can handle anything…..it's my nature to run run run and be busy but right now it's just too much. People tell me "well slow down"….how? There is nothing that I can take a break from or what to take a break from. Everything going on in my life right now needs my full attention….
And then there's times when I feel like even in the midst of my crazy life I go out of my way for people to let them know I'm there for them….send them cards, send an out of the blue email or ecard, get them flowers, or buy them small gifts. That's me; I care a lot about people and I care a lot about making sure the people in my life are doing ok. But sometimes I feel like I give and give and give and when does anyone do that for me…..when does someone check on me; when does someone go out of their way for me. Man….I'm such a brat right now, but sometimes you just have to vent, right? ;)
This week is just one of those weeks where I'm just tired and overwhelmed and frustrated…..and I just need to vent I guess.
I know that God is amazing and I know He'll never give me more than I can handle. I know that through all this He will teach me great things. I guess I just need to stop being a brat and just look harder to see Him in all of this.
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