Well after my 2nd treatment my levels have consistently gone down! Praise the Lord!!
On Friday they were in the 700s and today they are in the 400s!
They’re heading in the right track. My pain has gone down tremendously and I’m confident that everything will be fine.
I’m looking forward to the next 3 months. I’m looking forward to putting my mind at ease and not stress so much about trying to get pregnant or stressing about having a healthy pregnancy. I’m looking forward to being able to completely put my focus on Christ!
God has been cleaning my heart out lately & doing a lot of work on me. It’s been hard yet pretty amazing at the same time.
Last year was a hard year for me with the emotional roller coaster Jordan & I were on & I declared that 2010 would be an amazing year. I spent the 1st week of 2010 in prayer every night on my knees about different things each night & God showed me some areas of my heart that I really need work on.
I hate to admit it but I’ve become somewhat of a bitter, harden, angry person lacking trust in Him over the last couple years with all the losses Jordan & I have personally faced & He’s showing me how much He loves me & wants to heal my heart. He’s also helped me to realize that I’ve never fully trusted Him with my life & He’s right. L
He’s been doing some pretty amazing things at Calvary as well. Our worship time has been amazing & our altar time as well. Jordan has really been seeking & growing more & more in the Lord lately as well & its amazing to see how much more God will use you when you’re getting to know Him on a new, fresh, deeper level; a level that makes you somewhat vulnerable.
Our worship time has been full of excitement & the anointing of the Holy Spirit has been so powerful I can barely sing & stand. Yesterdays sermon was about faith & trust. Ha! Talk about timing….just what I needed to learn more about it. Our altars were completely filled with people willing to step out & trust God on a deeper level…we shouted to the rooftops the song “THE ENEMY HAS BEEN DEFEATED, DEATH COULDN’T HOLD YOU DOWN, WE’RE GONNA LIFT OUR VOICE IN VICTORY, WE’RE GONNA MAKE YOUR PRAISES LOUD! SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF TRIUMPH, SHOUT UNTO GOD WITH A VOICE OF PRAISE!” (check it out: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X--jzuVTZqM&feature=related or http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PLQEI1Ftiz8&feature=related)
It was awesome & I’ve been needing God’s presence like that lately. I’ve needed to see His power is still real especially in my life.
It’s been a struggle for me the last year to love Him like I need to, but He’s doing a work in me; physically, spiritually, & emotionally. And I couldn’t be happier for the cleansing & renewing He’s allowing me to go through.
I’m so excited for 2010. I’m excited for what God is doing in my life, in Jordan’s life, in our marriage, & in Calvary; & I can only imagine what He’s going to do in the lives of those around Jordan & I that we are on our knees for.
2010 is going to be the year where God’s power is beaming again; I feel it & I’m excited! I’ve needed His presence so much…I can’t even explain it.
I’ve got a lot of hurt & confusion to still work through so I’ve had my ups & downs, but I’m confident that God’s power is real & His word is true. If you asked me a couple months ago if I thought His power & His word were true I would’ve honestly had a hard time answering….BUT THE ENEMY HAS BEEN DEFEATED, DEATH COULDN’T HOLD YOU DOWN, WE’RE GONNA LIFT OUR VOICE IN VICTORY, WE’RE GONNA MAKE YOUR PRAISES LOUD!
I don’t care how much the cleansing of my heart will hurt….I’m ready & I want it & I’m excited! J
Even while I blog I feel His presence. Thank You Lord for what You’re doing in my life….I love You.
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